slicked

"your too nice carlos"

"yeah, N is right, you need to grow some"

"sure, being nice is a must,
but you need to learn when enough is enough"

"were not telling you to change, but we sudjest for you to know;
when to say no, when to stand up for yourself,
you cant keep it all in to yourself
you need to learn when to let out what needs to be let out at the time."

"basicaly, what L is saying, if you dont,
everything you bottle up inside is gona explode,
on someone you dont want it to"

"i dont know guys..."

"thats our sudjestion, what we think, you dont have to do it...
but N and i think you should"

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i wake up, take a shower, look in the mirror
fuzzy, poffy, curly, too soft...
look around, thru the cabinets, under the sink
found it, all the way in the back.
"i thought i would never use you again..."
look around some more, found the second item.
.
.
.
hair is getting pulled back, the curls being strethced.
the hair hidding me for so long, is finaly showing the world my face.
hair tugging is ignored, the short momentarily sence of pain will pay off later.
"i dont like this so far..."
the first item is opened and spilled, rubbed, and spread on my hands.
they reach up and cover my hair,
it starts to shine agaisnt the lights,
the substance gets a strong hold of my hair.
grabing a bundel of hair from the back, and a hairband at hand
tightening the hold on my head, i gain a tail and a new look.
but it's not enough...

get out of the bathroom, to my closet, get out my black jacket.
put it on and get my black pants, "things are coming together"
go to the sword stand where an item was placed.
it gets picked up, and it shines just like my black hair.
i dust it off and place the frames on my face letting the legs sit on my ears.
my eyes are now covered again, but this time, giving me a new look.

but this new look is just a shell, i still need to chance inside.
im still soft inside,
over time i'll change,
then hopefully, i wont get hurt anymore,
i'll stop taking shit from the poeple around me,
and then i wont have to fake a smile anymore.

but for now, the first step is done.